Yes, you, my little buddha baby. This post is for you. You’ve got your first year under your belt and I am so ready to start this next chapter of your life.
Not that the first year wasn’t fun. It was. You’ve shown us how to be easy going. You’ve shown us all how to be happier. Your constant smile and giggles are contagious. My neurotic ways have been pacified by your peaceful stares and gentles touch. You, my angel, are exactly what we needed in the family.
And that’s why I am so excited and overjoyed for what comes next.
When your sister came along she prepared us for what it meant to love unconditionally. She taught us to be patient with her and with ourselves. She got us ready to welcome you with the knowledge and the sense of confidence that can only be attained after having had one child.
You arrived on December 12th, 2015 and we were ready. I had been counting down the minutes/seconds until you arrived. I wasn’t feeling that great towards the end of the pregnancy but I chalked it up to just being “super” pregnant. It turned out it wasn’t just pregnancy, it was pre-eclampsia. No need to bore you with those details now but I will say that although your hypnobirth was perfect, the next couple days were a challenge.
I wasn’t able to come home to you guys, and my heart was broken. All I wanted was to be with you, with Mia, to be home. In the middle of the immense joy I felt with your arrival, it was also one of the most difficult times for me. But my love for my family drove my determination. Determined to get better, to reassess things, to pray harder, to appreciate more, and to turn my stress factors down a notch.
And that’s what you’ve taught all of us. To chill out. To be calm.
We were ready for you to arrive almost two weeks prior to your actual arrival but of course, you showed up on your own time.
It’s like you knew this was your lesson to teach us. To remind us to take life easy. What’s the rush?
You crawled late. Like reminding us to stop and sit sometimes.
You stood up late. Like reminding us to enjoy the scenery around us.
You still aren’t walking (although you seem close). It’s like you keep telling us in your way, “STOP! Enjoy! Don’t rush life”
I’m trying to, my love. I’m trying to learn from you every day. I’m trying to breath and relax. To let go and have faith. I’m trying to be more like you, my little buddha baby. To smile at the sun, to take my time, to appreciate every little minute of each day.
I’m a work in progress, I know, but with you as my coach, I have no doubt that I will be a master at this one day.
There’s an old Chinese saying that states a new child will always bring what the family was missing.
I guess we were missing some chill, we were missing your calmness.
Thank you for hearing our unsaid prayers and choosing us as your family.
We are forever changed for the better because of you.
So, although I’m a little sad that the first baby year is gone, I know that there are so many more exciting things coming your way soon. And I promise, I’m going to be patient…I know they’ll come on their own time ;)
Happiest of Birthdays, my baby boy, Alexander Ivo.
Photography by Emma del Rey